Gratitude

Saying goodbye

Things are winding down with my family’s visit, they’ve been here for eleven wonderful days. Their plane leaves tomorrow night, and I’m so not looking forward to saying goodbye, I can already feel the sadness starting to creep in. I’m trying my best to stay present and appreciate the time we have left and I’m struggling. I have so many mixed emotions right now, I really need a little journal/tumblr therapy, but every second I spend here leaves me feeling guilty for taking time away from them. Hence my lack of presence.

Okay self, deep breath, relax, meditate, be here now.

-Namaste

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determination, motivation, and setting goals.

So much of my blog is about being in the now, this has always been a struggle for me. I have pretty much always been goal oriented my entire life, I love that part of myself, I love the challenge of pushing myself to my limit, and the reward of achieving my goal. It makes me feel empowered and strong. Strong with self, empowered with discipline. My inner conflict has been, if I’m focused on a goal, am I less focused on the now and less self aware. How can a person do both in today’s society…I feel more centered now then ever before in my life, but in order to truly live the life I want, I have to work hard sometimes (sometimes extra hard). The more I’ve thought about this, the more I’ve realized, being in the moment does not mean giving up the goal. Being in the moment is being on the path of my goal. And as I make this connection, at this moment it all becomes one. All my dreams, my goals, my moment, my now. Ahh….now I get it.

Harmonious Interweb

I say this time and time again (and will most likely continue to).

Everyday I’m so grateful for tumblr and the beautiful blogs I follow. It has enriched my life tremendously. No matter how I’m feeling, whether I’m lacking in or overflowing with love, it feeds my soul. Some days I wont even know what it is I need, but all of a sudden it’s right here before me, right on my dash. My blog has become my canvas, its an expression of my heart and soul, and completely organic. When I think of it on a larger scale - all the other beautiful humans that I have met here that I follow, who inspire me and bring me joy. what a truly magnificent organism of collective love, beauty and peace we share. That in itself is a miracle to me…together at this very moment, we are one.

coffee

Thank you!!!!!

Gratitude is found in the oddest of places.

Recently I discovered a pre alcoholic vitamin shot called NOHO. It was created to help prevent hangovers. I’m in the entertainment business (bartender), and having several drinks per work night has become apart of my job. I’ve tried to go the night without, but unfortunately it’s one of my demons. I pretty much don’t drink otherwise. If any of you have ever worked in the food/bar industry, I think you know what I’m talking about.

My immense gratitude goes out to the creators of this product! Since I tried it about two weeks ago, life has been wonderful. I don’t drink all that much, but it was still enough to leave me feeling blah the following day. Not only do I feel great with this stuff, but I in turn am such a happier person all around. It may seem silly to be grateful for such a product, but in my line of work, its a blessing.

ps, I am in no way affiliated with this company, just an excited customer. 

Friday, July 22, 2011

Today is a wonderful day - my heart is filled with so much gratitude I could explode!

to name just a couple;

The rain on this extremely hot Chicago day - followed by a big bright sun. My wonderful family - I have family coming in from Las Vegas to visit me August 12 whom I miss terribly - I’m so grateful for the excitement and anticipation I’m feeling…I’m so inspired to spruce up my house, I love it!!